Thursday, June 30, 2011

“Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics. You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded. Because the elements, the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars. And the only way they could get into your body is if the stars were kind enough to explode. So forget Jesus. The stars died so you could be here today." ~ Lawrence M. Krauss
“And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.” ~ Sylvia Plath

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

“It isn’t easy to accept that suffering can also be beautiful… it’s difficult. It’s something you can only understand if you dig deeply into yourself.” ~ Rainer W. Fassbinder
“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday, June 27, 2011

Mad Girl’s Love Song by Sylvia Plath

let your guard down. its ok to trust with everything in you, fully & completely. I know its hard not to think about all the things he could be doing when hes not around, who he could be talking to.. but dont be scared. he loves you like no one ever has. trust him. you wont regret it.
“If you don’t know love, someone will come along and teach you how to hate yourself, then you’ll confuse the two!”

No one can tell you all that love is, but I can tell you what it isn’t. One thing that I’ve found to be true is that REAL LOVE doesn’t hurt – at all. And when you are hurting, it’s not from a place of love! Don’t confuse the two.

So many people have entered into a relationship where neither party knew real love. Then their insecurities surfaced and they projected them onto one another. Next they selfishly tried to make the other person fill voids in their life. Miserably, they failed. It resulted in fights and nights filled with tears. Then to top it off, they called it love!

News flash: that’s not love, that’s self-hate.

Evaluate your relationship today. If your partner isn’t adding to you then they are taking away from you. It is very possible to have a relationship without any love in it. So please don’t label a toxic relationship as love. It’s part of the reason why love has a bad name today.

Before you can love anyone, you must first love yourself. A part of loving yourself is being strong enough to let someone go so that the both of you can grow. Then take time to learn what real love is and what a healthy relationship is. Then, and only then, are you ready to enter into a relationship.

Love speaks languages of it’s own and pain isn’t one of them

~ Tony A. Gaskins Jr.
Socializing is as exhausting as giving blood. People assume we loners are misanthropes just ­sitting thinking, ‘Oh, people are such a bunch of assholes,’ but it’s really not like that. We just have a smaller tolerance for what it takes to be with others. It means having to perform. I get so tired of communicating. ~ Anneli Rufus

Blaine & I

he is my hearts reflection..

Saturday, June 25, 2011

'Sometimes, I feel more connected with strangers from across the world than I do with most of my friends in real life. Sometimes one feels freer speaking to a stranger than to people one knows. Probably because a stranger sees us the way we are, not as he wishes to think we are.'


I don’t hate you, I never could. I don’t regret meeting you, I never would. I do regret our relationship. It destroyed our friendship.

Friday, June 24, 2011

I give you my heart ~ & when our souls melt into eternity & the universe takes its final breath, our love will live forever ~ you & I, infinite. always..
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along. ~ Rumi

Thursday, June 23, 2011

“Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.” ~ Plato

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Sunday, June 19, 2011


he wouldnt just walk away. he wouldnt just let me leave. that automatically makes him more worthy of my heart than you.

Don't let her go to sleep upset.

'Because, she’ll only toss and turn in frustration, until sadness pulls her into sleep, and tears stain her pillow. You’ll be her first thought when she wakes up, and more than anything, she’ll wish she could go back to sleep, back to the silence, to the empty blackness. Don’t do this to her, she’s worth so much more, if she wasn’t, she wouldn’t care.'

Friday, June 17, 2011

I miss you so much sometimes it hurts
sometimes I lay naked on the ground & fold myself into the earth
where all is not vanity
all is not war

Monday, June 13, 2011


this just made me burst into tears..

I don't hate you, I'm just disappointed you turned into everything you said you'd never be..
I'm using the spillings out of my heart to fill in the holes that you left..

Mumford & Sons: After The Storm

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears
And love will not break your heart but dismiss your fears
Get over your hill and see what you find there
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair
As painful as it sounds, we should be thankful for the things we lost. They freed us to walk into something greater.

Never think that what you have to offer is insignificant. There is always someone who NEEDS what YOU have to give.

~ Alex Simmons

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I'm still fighting feeling discarded from my last relationship. I mean, he was my best friend. how does one go from talking for hours on end every single night for months.. to nothing.. like the absence of my presence was left to be unnoticed. like I was never even there.. I'm tired of feeling like it always matters more to me than the other person. it still hurts..

I deserve better than that..
use your strength to meet whatever is coming your way. be as committed & passionate about spirituality as you can be. strength is the foundation for passion, & you were designed to survive & thrive no matter how life unfolds. be strong today in that knowledge. ~ Deepak Chopra

Friday, June 10, 2011

'If kissing was just two people touching lips, it wouldn’t touch our hearts and bind our souls the way it does.'
Each one has to find his peace from within. And peace to be real must be unaffected by outside circumstances. - Mahatma Gandhi
from this moment on I vow to spend my time with my nose buried in books, constantly in spiritual ascension. I promise to love myself more, be more forgiving of my flaws & imperfections. to remember storms will pass. to live & breathe love. if my life is never remembered after this mortal existence has ceased, my love & passion will be dispersed throughout the universe for the greater good of mankind..

I will love with everything in me.. no matter the risk..
“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. a mutual addiction…”Seduce my mind and you can have my body… find my soul and I’m yours forever.”..”
“Sex without love is as hollow and ridiculous as love without sex." ~ Hunter S. Thompson


'When you begin developing feelings for someone that you have no rational explanation as to why you feel that way. When their voice makes you instantly smile like an idiot. When you can’t stop thinking about them because they’re the most beautiful soul you’ve ever seen. When their voice literally takes you to another place where this world ends and it’s only you and them. When you can feel their soft lips and skin against yours from a thousand miles away. When you dream about them all the time, even when you’re awake. When you find them so incredibly sexy that your fantasies pale in comparison. When nothing else in the world matters to you except their beautiful smile. When you realize in that instant that your world would be less beautiful without their laughter in it. When you know in your heart that you have found true love but your insecurities have you frozen in fear. When you feel unworthy to have the love of someone so amazingly beautiful. When you know there is no price you wouldn’t pay and no thing you wouldn’t do to be the person that gets to love them and hold them in your arms for the rest of their life.' ~ James Raven

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

dear me, about six weeks ago

don’t answer his text. don’t even talk to him. he’s only going to break your heart again.

your love will be returned & appreciated. you'll have someone show you that you are worthy of all those things you were willing to give & more. he's sweet, sensitive & funny. hes not the dog you perceive him to be. enjoy him. & dont push him away again.

Monday, June 6, 2011

these moments will last forever..

Saturday, June 4, 2011

do you love me because I'm beautiful or am I beautiful because you love me?

Thursday, June 2, 2011

life: in progress.

I am more than what I've been branded as..

my life is constant shift these days. but chaos serves evolution right.?. I must always remember I know nothing. I am but a collective experience of the universe & I should be so thankful she chooses to speak through me. I am a guide & a student. infinite. I will shed preconceived notions of how I think things should be & remember life is happening for me, not to me.

'kill the father' ~ jim morrison