"What is to give light must endure the burning. " - Victor Frankl

remind me..

# You have to keep your mind well fed, so write a list of 20 things that keeps your mind feeling nourished and make sure you’re giving them room in your life.

# Learn to catch yourself every single time you tell yourself that you can’t have, won’t get or aren’t good enough to get what you want.

# Take yourself off auto-pilot – make deliberate decisions on what really matters to you.

# Next time you come up against a risk or a challenge, listen to what you tell yourself and look for a way that that inner dialog can be improved. Ask yourself, “What would make this easier?”

Write a list of the things you’re tolerating and putting up with in your life, then write down how you can remove, minimize or diminish each one.

Listen to your doubts but be ready to make deliberate decisions once you’ve heard them. Sometimes your doubts are there to let you know what you need to prepare for, so you can use them to your benefit as you move forwards.

Do you get annoyed with yourself because you didn’t make the most of something or stepped back form an opportunity? Don’t beat yourself up because that’s just going to make you feel worse. Instead, be brutally honest and ask yourself what you gained from the situation and what you lost out on. Based on this win/lose balance, what’s a different choice you can make next time?

Don’t get swept up in the drama of what’s happening right now, look for more useful ways of engaging with what happens in your life.

# Trust your instincts. They know what they’re talking about.

You need to be around people who make you feel like YOU, so spend more time with the people who support and encourage you and less with those who undermine you.

Fear is a way of letting you know that you’re about to stretch yourself and grow your confidence. That’s a good thing, so use it to take yourself forwards rather than run away.

Forget the pro’s and con’s – do something bold in the face of your challenges and fears.

The body is a mirror for the mind, so shifting your body into a confident state can have surprising results.

# Shy with new people? Not a problem, there’s nothing wrong with being shy and it doesn’t mean you’re not confident. Just don’t overthink it, start beating yourself up or thinking you’re less than because you’re shy – the more you think like that the worse it gets.

# Your environment directly impacts your self-perception, so if you’re surrounded by clutter, paperwork and rubbish put a morning aside to clean up your stuff and get
organized.

The longer you leave that big thing on your to-do list the more it’ll drain you and the bigger it’ll seem – get it done and free yourself up.

# What golden threads, themes, patterns and passions have always been in your life? If those things aren’t present in your life right now, you need to shift your priorities.

Try a new path. The well-trodden paths of your life can easily turn from familiarity to apathy and disconnection. A new path wakes you up.

# Make a plan to do something, then make deliberate choices to follow through. Seeing progress gives you important self-reinforcement.

# When you feel yourself focusing inwards and becoming paralyzed with doubt or fear, switch to focusing outwards at what you can engage and interact with.

*selfmade list from
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifehack/63-ways-to-build-self-confidence.html

Name: Kandice

Origin and Meaning of the Name Kandice


Gender:Girl

Origin:Greek
Meaning:Fire-white

Origin:Latin
Meaning:Pure

Pronunciation:(KAN diss)

the social stigma of emotion

neath the dystopia of spiritual decay
I scrawled his name in loveless letters cross the blackened stars
...stellar giants unfurling in their slumber

the disconnection of life between the shadows has stitched shut my sorrowed lips

'there is no heaven..' his voice pained
'the angels have died
& love does not exist.'
...mirrored self affliction dripping from his self righteous tongue

a broken trend.kill

heart.sick
& coughing up blood from the dirt of graves
I was barely there
splayed in naked innocence

I was left in the remnants of a broken dream
sideways shaken
& sunday slit..

I have died in the ways one only can in love
where in between the spaces it fades to gray
hell.bent against the finality of things

....& gasping I see
crumbling in my self preserving hands
that darkened spot where hope rots in free minds

these are the overtones of a spiritual rebirth...

hell ~o again

so I figured after some recent feedback on my work it was about time to reintroduce myself. first I want to thank anyone who has ever stopped by to read my writings & anyone who has identified with even a line from one of my poems. it means more than you'll ever know.

I guess I'm writing this cuz I feel the constant need to explain myself so I'm not misunderstood. (thanks to a.. no longer friend for pointing that out) its funny how sometimes all you need is an outside perspective to help you see things you normally wouldnt, or even in a different light. also because its been pointed out to me that I tend to compartmentalize my feelings. the dark parts & sadness in me goes into my writing. I guess this must make me look like quite the cutter.. that couldnt be further from the truth. I'm an extremely peaceful happy person, quite in love with life. I love being me. my writing comes from my life experiences. heart broken & losing friends left & right these days.. sometimes my work appears quite morbid & full of self pity. I'm really not that way at all. being a libra & constantly trying to keep balance every part of me has to go somewhere. seems I just feel things with much more intensity than most..

(me)

today I string together ribbons of my subconscious, unfolding the physical manifestations of my souls longings for balance. that harmony in life, love. the quiet minds dream.

*live.laugh.love*

welcome to my world

Saturday, July 3, 2010

You may be on a life-long quest to find balance in your world. If this is true, then today can bring the birth of a new purpose, for the current imbalance may not be letting you rest. First you rush ahead into something new, yet you still struggle to let down your protective walls. Ultimate harmony may be elusive, but you'll feel better now if you simply moderate the extremes.

todays horoscope

pretty dead on


Libra

You can act very spontaneous today when your mind is liberated from an old emotional attachment. This isn't just about making an artistic statement; it's about reasserting your private connection to a higher spiritual purpose, expressing yourself in a way that helps others see their own true nature. Without a lot of effort, you can use your talents now to positively impact the lives of those around you simply by showing up and being yourself.

bound & gagged
mute.d sun.days
the needle bends.
(..s.hallowed dirty streets...)
everything is wrong again..

silent are the amber hills
on nights following the rains

ember shots in negative .exposure
my worlds on the verge of the upside of down

fevery rosed.. ...& scissored
in silken spirals of a blackened steel blue
I found.. me

somber spiral of spiritual anarchy~creation lures, singing dark notes of sanity~sifting thru the dead sands of time

can you see me?

I will walk
white velvet fire on (a) summer daze
in edification for mute souls
behind the winds
blowing kisses in reveries of love