self preservation is a bitch

we're all born with Hope, but some remove it for self-protection ~ Brian Carlin

http://theprimate.wordpress.com/

thought..

We fail love, love doesn't fail us...

blah

with the birth & death of the day~instincts recognize~silent sins~silence within~your expression echos & mimics the dead air between us

sometimes

even the best intentions cant fixed a fucked up situation

"Be Patient And Tough; One Day This Pain Will Be Useful"


My fingers tremble dialing your number
"Hello, you've reached the rest of my life. I'm sorry I don't have time for your
love right now but please leave your broken heart at the beep & I'll be sure to get back to you when its convenient to me."

*from my piece The 11:35 to Phoenix
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/2969/

Ginsberg said it best..

"an arthritic heart"

love, lost

"Closing down in the midst of pain is a denial of a man's true nature. A superior man is free in feeling and action, even amidst great pain and hurt. If necessary, a man should live with a hurting heart rather than a closed one. He should learn to stay in the wound and act with spontaneous skill and love, even from that place" - DAVID DEIDA

at points

I feel I can no longer trust anyone to be who they appear to be anymore. when did things become so fake? maybe I'm just too full of love to see it sometimes.. pseudo salutations.. the world.. everything is so plastic some days. how do people in your day to day life, that have been there for years, that you'd trust everything with become such.. so.. hollow. is the only reality my own?

note to self

funny how I still find it easier to admit everything here than in person. there is some sort of comfort & security about splaying your life to the world from behind a computer screen.. this little quote is now a constant reminder of how it really should be. & to never settle for anything less than I deserve. ever notice how it still hurts.. even when you know thats the truth?..

Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you.

(me)

today I string together ribbons of my subconscious, unfolding the physical manifestations of my souls longings for balance. that harmony in life, love. the quiet minds dream.

*live.laugh.love*

welcome to my world

Saturday, July 3, 2010

You may be on a life-long quest to find balance in your world. If this is true, then today can bring the birth of a new purpose, for the current imbalance may not be letting you rest. First you rush ahead into something new, yet you still struggle to let down your protective walls. Ultimate harmony may be elusive, but you'll feel better now if you simply moderate the extremes.