wtf

so not even 3 months seems to be the average time to go from breaking up with me (even though you were supposedly so in love with me) cuz you need to find yourself, heal, cant be in a relationship etc fucking etc, to putting yourself on dating sites & even ending up in relationships. 3 fucking months. gawd dammit I wish this didnt bother me so much. I feel like I was lied to, back-stabbed... why do I feel so betrayed? ...

it hurts. alot.



why wasnt I enough? ...

I wish

I never loved you.

well well.

I think it hurts more than anything to know I still love him. that I still care. when 'sometimes I felt more alone than he had time for.' all these months later.. & for what really? only to be shown the same thing as when we were dating. some things (like a music career) are just more important. emotional obligation is too much for some people.. I guess no matter how close you were, when one person cares more than the other, some friendships you just cant save..