5 'o clock in the fuckin am & here I am. (self inflicted, perhaps?) victim to the pain of my past hurts once more. aint self preservation a bitch?? cleansing is in order, in one way or the other. I'm just not sure whether to throw myself in front of my emotional bus or not. face my fears, confront my demons & I come out stronger in the end for it. but by doing so I push away the one man whos ever been strong enough to handle me. ...he swears he'll wait..

he deserves better than all this..

I *have* to learn to love myself more..

...sometimes you have to rip open your wounds & crawl around in them. because once the bleeding starts the healing can begin..