wasting the dawn

I'll take these memories in exchange for my sanity.. ~ spiritual purification through the art of self destruction ~ the beauty of tragedy..

a broken trend.kill

heart.sick
& coughing up blood from the dirt of graves
I was barely there
splayed in naked innocence

I was left in the remnants of a broken dream
sideways shaken
& sunday slit..

I have died in the ways one only can in love
where in between the spaces it fades to gray
hell.bent against the finality of things

....& gasping I see
crumbling in my self preserving hands
that darkened spot where hope rots in free minds

these are the overtones of a spiritual rebirth...

washing off the dirt of graves

um..???

giant screaming warning sign or what? first my horoscope then this is the first thing I see on twitter when I havnt paid attention to that site in days.

Things are not always as they appear. Be mindful not to jump to conclusions or make assumptions based on observation alone.

time is melting

dead on.

Today's Full Moon illuminates your 5th House of Romance and Creativity, making this a day for love. But excitement can bring a few surprises along with it. You may not be assessing others realistically now, although it's a gift to be able to see the highest potential in anyone you meet. Be careful not to judge things by their appearance alone, for the truth may not be as pretty as the attractive veneer.

falling off kilter

so why does doing the right thing for yourself still have to hurt so much.. either I hurt myself more by staying in the friendship or I keep breaking my own heart this way. love.. she is a double edged sword..

its a long road ahead..

If you dwell on the 'ifs' and put constraints on how things should be then you will never find happiness

quote

The road to heaven passes through hell. Digging through darkness is how you find the doors to fulfillment. Today, you can be certain that your challenges are clearing the way for something better to come along." - Yehuda Berg

today..

trying not to feel guilty about hurting someone because I have to take care of me.. he broke my heart by ending the relationship. I now break his by ending the friendship. (& batter my own a little more in the process) I hope one day it doesnt hurt as much.. for now I'm still licking my wounds.

I miss my best friend, more than anything I ever have. I'm sorry Mr. Fino..

transcending: an evolution of self

I once found shelter in burning bridges,
under where you left pieces of yourself
scattered... in the all around never ending of me..
....you've only yet to find the winds still whisper my name
.......as if it hasnt always been written on the tip of your tongue