s.cry

I tucked him away in my pocket with dead roses
& old letters
& what was left of my love
why was it never the one with holes..

of dead seas

a prelude to static

his love was honey & vodka
& I had fallen with tattered lace wings on a silken summer breeze,
in remembrance of faded romance
& such things

Random Photography

reflective oceans of me

to find an awareness shift, it really is all about being ok
with yourself. we tend to get caught in a negative sub conscious
pattern of mentally beating ourselves up. it has alot to do with our
self confidence. you have to reprogram your thought process. be at one with the moment. notice your conscious breath. this life can be whatever you want it to be. ♥

In yourself you must..

trying to live without regrets.. not working so well

if I hadnt known better I would of thought I dreamed him. with him never far from my thoughts these days sometimes I fear I might have. if such a perfection existed here on earth then I must have been living in my own self made hell. cuz the likes of him I never knew existed. now he'll always be the one that got away. the one that wanted my heart when I didnt have it to give. & now... funny how hindsight is 20/20.. it had been right in my face the whole time. I'm trying not to kick myself for not seeing it. but its hard. he came into work to see me a few days ago. I wish we hadnt of been there so I could have pulled him closer.. as soon as he walked out that door I missed him. all those times my ex commented about our long distance relationship "what if you meet someone.." I should have listened & gave my heart to a man who deserved it. fuck...

dontcha hate it

when you miss your chance at something great?..

I found him smiling under the pieces of me that hadnt broken yet
in a perfect picture my heart sang
in a blind portrait I see whats always been in front of me
the whispers of love in the shadows of his blue eyes

I still be(lie)ve in love

I miss having someone to touch me not only with passion, but emotion too. being single sucks.

hell~o again

the great thing about my life is every time I think there's no possible way I can be any stronger, I get proved wrong. I feel like there's this huge hole in my chest where my heart used to be. it came to be from my breakup. then life piled on top of it. now there's no one around. my 3 best friends I cant even talk to. everyone else is caught up in their own lives. did you know you can never really get used to being alone? being a libra & all about balance I cant wait to seal up this hole for good. its time keep all the promises I made to myself, keep in touch with the connections in life I've made & be happy. keep focus on my passions. I guess all this has alot to do with why I started this blog to begin with. I tend to be too analytical. I spend alot of time in my head with nowhere for my thoughts go. honestly if 1000 people read it & only 10 understood any of it, that would be enough for me. if I can help one person in knowing they are not alone by reading what I've been through, then its all worth it. guess I never thought about how exposing it can be splaying myself to strangers. funny how that can be easier than opening up to people around you. although when it comes to writing these types of entries, well any of them really, I do it for myself first. if you've been following my work, I just want to say thank you. all are welcome here. ♥ ~K