there isnt much that keeps me afloat lately. with the bf off to work today & my daughter still at her fathers I'm already fighting the loneliness, feelings of uselessness. he's one of the only things helping to keep my head above water right now. I know I need to find this balance in myself, but more & more over the past few months I'm having trouble doing so. not looking forward to this day..

I guess there comes a time in every existence where one has to decide whats more important, holding on or letting go. its sad really that a differing of opinions could send everything crashing down so violently.. I feel liked I've done so much damage.. & I never even meant to. so how can one give a sincere apology when they feel they've not purposely done wrong? or maybe even at least find a way to set it right.. I dont know what else to do. spose I need to face the facts, maybes theres just no way we could ever really be just friends..