its a shame

regardless of how crushed I feel at times, today I can lift my head up & know that there has to be one person out there for everyone. I feel this love so insanely all the way thru me for someone one else, then there has to be someone out there that feels the same.

His loss.

He's My Edward

I am a sobering grace
Victorian ruffled
under coffin shaped stars
in the core of where no one should have been able to shake me
but he did

Darkness falls
swirling dead colors in my tired eyes
& I am cradled in midnight dreams
of missing how he touched me

I am Bella.
Except in this ending I do not get to keep my love
I do not get to wake
(tongue in cheek)
chin to the morning light
to the warm taste of my lover's skin on my lips
...how he crawled under every inch of me

& in this ending
I wake scarlet twisted & numb
to the piercing sounds of my screams
& that sinking feeling of love left unbidden, in uneven waters
.unspoken.
& uncharted

Where I am today

this insanely beautiful amazing relationship. tragically star crossed lovers, heartbreakingly cruel ending. he says I love you now more than he used to.

if he can make love to my soul like that & just walk away then it really is his loss isn't it?

carve out the eyes of my heart

Bell Rock

Sainted Night

the temporary insanity of apathetic emptiness takes the focus off my missing pieces

it really only hurts when I breathe

( you ruined everything )

I tucked him away with dead colors
& wilted roses under the desert sand
in the only place he'd stay with me forever
my heart

Haiku

there will always be ~ an empty spot in my heart ~ just for you my love

Three Words

My tired eyes.

Trace

I buried my heart neath the ruins of that night

Fish Hook Smile

I break stars & night like the sky was falling

he's like a drug

withdrawals
& pitfalls

till I knelt there

screaming white &
.fractured.

Ephemeral Energy

I found myself under a pale spring moon
slanted
& fallen victim to my heart

fraying the shattered echos of mirrored self afflictions
a somber rush of fading green

I am entangled & drown
in the schism of a punch drunk love

Neon lights flicker in a droning haze

Giving my heart feels like such a weakness
(His breath on my neck)

I hope I can forget how to love you