forgive me.. 

“When does real love begin? At first it was a fire, eclipses, short circuits, lightning and fireworks; the incense, hammocks, drugs, wines, perfumes; then spasm and honey, fever, fatigue, warmth, currents of liquid fire, feast and orgies; then dreams, visions, candlelight, flowers, pictures; then images out of the past, fairy tales, stories, then pages out of a book, a poem; then laughter, then chastity. At what moment does the knife wound sink so deep that the flesh begins to weep with love? At first power, power, then the wound, and love, and love and fears, and the loss of the self, and the gift, and slavery. At first I ruled, loved less; then more, then slavery. Slavery to his image, his odor, the craving, the hunger, the thirst, the obsession.” ~ Anaïs Nin ♥

“One of the deepest feminine pleasures is when a man stands full, present, and unreactive in the midst of his woman’s emotional storms. When he stays present with her, and loves her through the layers of wildness and closure, then she feels his trustability, and she can relax…” — Osho

Your eyes were searchlights, seeking me out even before I knew you. Your words made me feel infinite. ~ Keighley Perkins

'Mary.
You're carrying in your left pocket a red ribbon sprayed with her scent.
You breathe it in sometimes when you think there's no one to see.
But what you feel...what you feel could only be satisfied by folding yourself into her.'

Drake ft. Rihanna - Take Care

[Rihanna]
I know you’ve been hurt, by, someone else.
I can tell by the way, you carry yourself.
If you let me, here’s what I’ll do.
I’ll take care of you.
I’ve loved and I’ve lost.

[Drake] [Verse1]
I’ve asked about you, and they told me things,
But, my mind didn’t change and I still feel the same
What’s a life with no fun, please don’t be so ashamed.
I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours.
We both know, we know.
They won’t get you like I will,
My only wish is I die real,
Cause that truth hurts and those lies heal.
And you can’t sleep thinking that he lies still.
So you cry still, tears all in her pillowcase,
Big girls all get a little taste, oh
Pushing me away, so I give her space oh.
Dealing with a heart that I didn’t break.
I’ll be there for you, I will care for you
I keep thinking you just don’t know.
Tryna run from that, say you done with that,
On your face girl it just don’t show.
When your ready, just say your ready.
When all the baggage just ain’t as heavy,
And the party’s over just don’t forget me.
We’ll change the pace, and we’ll just go slow.

[Hook] [Drake]
You won’t ever have to worry.
You won’t ever have to hide.
And you have seen all my mistakes,
So look me in my eyes.

[Rihanna]
Cause if you let me, here’s what I’ll do.
I’ll take care of you.
I’ve loved and I’ve lost.

[Verse 2] [Drake]
It’s my birthday, I’ll get high if I want to,
Can’t deny that I want you,
But I’ll lie if I have to. Cause you don’t say you love me,
To your friends when they ask you.
Even though we both know that you do, you do.
One time, been in love one time.
You and all your girls in the club one time.
All so convinced that you’re following your heart,
Cause your mind don’t control what it does sometimes.
We all have our nights though,
Don’t be so ashamed.
I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours.
We both know, we know.

[Hook]
You hate being alone when you ain’t the only one.
You hate the fact that you bought the dream
When they sold you one.
And you love your friends,
But somebody should have told you somethin,
To save you.
Instead they say......

(“Don’t tell me, I don’t care, if you hurt.
I don’t tell you, you don’t care if you’re true.
Don’t tell me, I don’t care, if you hurt.
I don’t tell you, you don’t care, if you’re true.”)

[Rihanna]
I know you’ve been hurt, By, someone else.
I can tell by the way, you carry yourself.
If you let me, here’s what I’ll do.
I’ll take care of you.
I’ve loved and I’ve lost.

I felt you in every fairytale romance, in every stolen kiss..

late nights away..

being with you, in your presence, your body in my arms.. you feed me. in ways I never knew to hunger, I find myself craving more of you.

“There’s this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It’s the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.”

his breath in my ear ~ 'I love you', in soft whispers ~ my heart in his hands

I've never been so.. exposed to someone before.. sometimes I feel like a frightened little child in his arms. I dont know why he loves me. he says I dont have to.

maybe one day, when I finally learn to love myself, I will.

two people so hopelessly in love, both scared to death of the heights they could fall from.

tragically beautiful, really..

its been a better couple of days.

tonight I laid curled up in his arms while he fell asleep. truth be told, I never wanted it to end. I just wanted to lay there for hours, burying myself in him.

me: I have never felt someone so totally through me. all the way to the depths of me..
him: you feel me all the way through you because you have wrapped your heart with mine in eternity.

Blaine,

I'm entirely too sensitive & have cried enough the past few years for my next 3 or 4 lifetimes. I'm insecure, stubborn as all hell & an emotional mess at times (more so than not lately). I'm my own worst enemy & as much as I love you I'm afraid I'll drag you down with me. but if you can be strong enough to survive these trips through my own personal hells with me.. & still want to be by my side.. I'll be yours forever.


you've been my strength all this time when I've felt so weak. no other man has ever been able to hold me up & show me the stars in such a way to give me hope when I've had so much trouble standing on my own. sometimes I think you cant possibly be of this world. maybes its just that your soul is so old & filled with ancient wisdoms that I've had such a hard time believing youre for real. all I can say is thank you for everything. thank you for being you. you are so much more wonderful than I think you'll ever realize. so much than your ex could even fathom or give you credit for. I hope she reads this, so I can tell her thank you for fucking up.

I've been looking for you ever since I read my first love story. & to my surprise youve been so much more than I could ever ask for. I'd be lost without you.

he is so much more than I ever could have asked for. all I'll ever need. more than I deserve.

stronger than I knew..
he would have to be, to be with me..

edwin mccain ~ i'll be

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains
Thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival
You're my living proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I've dropped out
I've burned up
I've fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in
Turned on
Remembered the things you said

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

piece of a message from my bf. (still outa states)

'Can't you feel that? Don't you? That it isn't just wanting or thinking... You *know* I am your entire future. My family. My heart.'


...enraptured.. & breathless..

I am so insanely, no strings attached, without a doubt head over heels in love with this man..

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.
— Bob Marley

text from my bf on his way outa the states

'my life is so entwined with yours. I feel like it is the beating of your heart that fills my veins.'

how could I ever need anything else..